The daughter I always wanted..

check me and my daughter.

April.

Hey Graceful,
I'd love to go down on my knees and give you my most sincere apology for being on a long pause where blogging is concerned. But sometimes apologies don't necessarily fix things. So I'll leave things the way they are. Let me just give you a small explanation that might somehow justify my absence from your life.
The reason I haven't scribbled for a while, is due to the fact that I was beside myself with distorted emotions. I'm not trying to be defensive or anything, but thats the absolute truth. I needed to grieve.....

So much has happened since I last blogged.
My aunt from SA came over for Easter with her lovely little girls. We had one blast of fun!
Orama turned 5 and became toothless the following day. He now thinks he is a man...
And as you probably already know, Chelsea, the POSHIEST FOOTBALL CLUB in the world, is back on top in the Premier League. SHWEET! The Blue Studs might not have made it in the Champions bloody league, but they are so kicking ASS now. Who says NYO?

Anyway, the most brilliant news is, I'm no longer at war with fate.
I've finally understood and accepted that some things are just not meant to be.
It wasn't at all easy. I tell you, it took a lot of craziness to get to this peaceful place where I am now. I had to cyber stalk, IM/email terrorize, and not forgetting crying oceans. I wonder if I still have a tear left to shed...
But it doesn't matter anymore. I needed everything I did inorder to heal.
Now I understand that sometimes one has to take that insane step into the insanity to save their sanity. And I have learnt that most of the times what we are so anxious to run away from is what we really need to save our troubled souls. One can never truly move on unless they stop running and come face to face with whatever it is they are running away from. After that an intense grieving process is required to let go. A lot of times it takes losing one's head to complete the whole heavy and teary process. Ha ha.
I'm glad to say that I've now dealt with the root of my grief. The love demon that had a strong grip on my world is gone forever. Its like being exorcised. All the poisonous love stains bleached for life.
I feel so liberated.
I am now ready to live.

HANNAH HAS ARRIVED!